Sometimes, we try to nourish possibilities in our heads based not on actuality but on our desires. These struggle to take root in arid grounds of make-believe yet eventually, it will find nothing to sustain it.
You were a fantasy I carried close to my heart. I held you close enough so my heart fluttered in its attempt to bridge the distance, but not too close you’d occupy a permanent place.
Little did I know that things would gain momentum until no amount of deflection can keep our worlds from colliding.
I should have known that when two worlds collide, one cannot soften the impact of the collision with logical strategies. When worlds collide, it shakes you to the core and exposes the very things you’d like to keep safe:
The essence of your being.
The sanity of your soul.
In the aftermath, only the firmest of resolve can help you sort through the wreck and recover what’s yours. It may take days, weeks, years, but persevere until your world is whole again.
Today, I woke up with a single thought in mind – to let go.
Yes, I allowed myself to be so happy, I dreamed about you for days on end! But now, I’m wide awake. I’m ready to live again. I’m whole.
I say goodbye to pages and pages of what-could-have-beens and watch them flutter farther into the distance. My feet are itching to dance. Perhaps I’ll indulge them.
Skipping as I walk, I say to me, “Welcome back, self! Welcome!”
- Top – Thrifted
- Skirt from a Bazaar
- Shoes from Parisian
- Bag from Zamboanga Barter Trade
This entry is my contribution to the #FIDMstyleProject – a new social media program that brings together bloggers FIDM Students, and fashion fans. The theme was supposed to be winter fashion but since I live in a tropical country, such a concept is non-existent.
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